"Am i myself..??"





I close the door.. I grab a chair. I look up in the mirror..

I see a silhouette, unrecognizable, peering through.. I dont see the beady eyes... I dont see the pursed lips..

Am i sad? I aint happy..


I dont feel the expressions.. I dont see a smile.. I dont feel an anguish.. The hair aren't strewn..

Am i awake? I aint in slumber..


I dont see an attire.. I dont see any prints..They appear eroded, faded.. Covered with ebony soot as if..

Am i achromatic? I aint much vibrant..


I dont like those lights.. They spread the luminance around.. Why waste it? I dont like sunlight.. Revealing the numbness..

Am i insecure? I aint much confident..


I like the night.. When its dark.. No soul breathes around.. Breathes under my neck.. Lets me be free.. To forage around.. Spread my wings..

Am i nocturnal? I aint luminiferous..


I am a mere reflection.. I dont feel your dismay, your shame.. I dont enjoy your ecstasy, your success..

Am i myself? I aint a stranger..



I do comprehend my consternation.. I want to be free.. I want exoneration..

From your soul.. From your guilt.. From YOUR world..

Who am i?

I am your SHADOW.. Your night shadow..

Comments

i want to be... said…
well written dude...good words used which reflect ur state of mind and convey ur expressions beautifully...
July 2, 2009 at 9:57 PM
Ships said…
Well written...Nice rhetorics... does certainly reflect despair...
August 4, 2009 at 2:56 PM
Anurag said…
thnx for the appreciation guys.. its heartening to see even my random thoughts evoke applause..:)
August 14, 2009 at 6:12 PM
prachi said…
nice one!mind conflicts and dismay is beautifully portrayed!
July 1, 2011 at 9:12 PM
Anurag said…
thanx prachi..:) its nice to see u here.. start posting..:)
July 2, 2011 at 2:48 PM
Shalina said…
so a great snapshot f that phase u wer talking abt...cud relate to a lot f those emotions..

"I am a mere reflection.. I dont feel your dismay, your shame.. I dont enjoy your ecstasy, your success.." well written
January 22, 2012 at 3:57 PM
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